surprise surgery

 

in april of last year i had a cyst that was twisting my left ovary and caused a ridiculous amount of pain.

it happened pretty suddenly.

i went into surgery just a few days after finding out what was happening because the pain was just so bad. worse than childbirth.

i had the option of having them cut me open and saving my ovary, but that would be much more painful and a longer recovery. or having laparoscopic surgery which meant my recovery would be much quicker but that would mean i would lose my ovary... but i was reassured that would not hinder my body's ability to get pregnant again.

so we opted for the latter. we didn't live by family and i had a 7 month old and i didn't need a long recovery.

but as i was getting prepped for surgery, i started second guessing that choice.

and as soon as i shared any doubt with alex he quickly agreed that we should try to save the ovary.

(you never know what the future holds)

so that's what was supposed to happen.

but a few hours later when i woke up i found out that they were not able to save it...it had twisted and lost blood flow.... and they also had to cut me open.

so i had the more painful, longer recovery and no ovary to show for it lol.

fun times.

aaaand now, almost a year later i'm having the same (or similar) surgery again.
but this time they should be able to save it!

a little under two months ago i noticed the same pain i had the first time around.
so i immediately saw my OB.
i really didn't want to take any chances with my last ovary.
i was hoping i was just crazy but sure enough, there was a small cyst.
she had me come back a few weeks later for a follow up ultrasound.

let me just say ultrasounds are not nearly as much fun when there is no baby to see haha.

 by the time i went back it was the size of a football.
gross.
so they sent me to an oncologist to make sure it wasn't cancer. and for a better chance of saving it.

waiting for that appt was a rough week.
because we had no idea how bad it possibly was.
i kept thinking of the worst case scenario.
as much as i have always, always wanted to adopt, the thought of not being able to have anymore kids biologically is pretty upsetting to me.


so finally the day came and it was mostly good news!
the dr was awesome, i love her and as long as there is no cancer she said should be able to save it!
my favorite part was when she told us that i needed to get pregnant right away.
:)
i'm fine with that.

the only not great news was that she seems to think it is likely that this will keep happening and that eventually they will have to just remove my ovary...
which is part of the reason she recommended getting pregnant quickly.


 so surgery is scheduled for tomorrow (friday) at 1pm.
  i'm excited to get it over with.
it's a pretty common operation but i'm still feeling a little nervous :/
but i'm sure it will go smoothly!

asking for prayers for me, alex and scarlett!

i'm mostly concerned about how scar is going to do because she has had a very rough week already.
she's got a cold and (we think) molars coming in.
she has been pretty unhappy and not sleeping well at all :(
so i'm afraid that that is going to make it extra hard for her to go without nursing for the 3 + days
i will be gone.
pray that both her and alex get some sleep this weekend!