22 weeks

How far along? 22 weeks, yo.

Babies are: according to babycenter they are about the size of a spaghetti squash :) around 11 inches long. their heartbeats were both around 150 yesterday. baby girl is frank breech now and baby boy is still vertex. all their extremities are about in the same place tho so it is hard to know who is kicking me most of the time. they both gravitate to my right side. my cervix is now at 3.7. still within normal range. (that info is more for me than you. but there's probably a few of you that care about that) and my belly is measuring almost 30 weeks. not bad, not bad.

Maternity clothes? you guys a friend gave me two adorable everyday maternity dresses and my mom bought me some maternity clothes at a garage sale last week! i'm so excited. i'm definitely more in need of maternity clothes this time than i was with Scar.

Weight gain: 20 lbs. whoa. i'm at 158. i gained about 30 lbs with Scarlett throughout the whole pregnancy....and i haven't even reached the third trimester yet.

Favorite moment this week: Alex got to feel one of the babies kick on monday night for the first time! (again, their legs are pretty much in the same spot so right now i'm not totally sure who's who)
that was really exciting. i'm starting to feel them more and more and can sometimes see them kick/punch. i love every second of it.
also, i love when Scarlett corrects/reminds me that we do have names for the babies after she hears me tell someone we haven't named them yet. she will whisper insistently in my ear, "actually mom we do have names. DINOSAUR and STAR!"

Sleep: pretty good in general. this last week i did have a few very restless nights where i woke up exhausted and another night of laying awake for a couple hours. but thankfully those nights haven't been the norm recently.

Symptoms: a little bit of indigestion....just feeling so full after a meal, even if i barely eat anything. i get winded very easily. like going up the stairs. is this normal? i feel incredibly out of shape. which i guess makes sense since i lived on the couch for 3 months and i wasn't really into working out before i got pregnant haha. but seriously. my body gets tired pretty easily. peeing a lot. super itchy all over. especially my belly and legs and boobs. i'm rarely comfortable sitting. i'm rarely comfortable anywhere but my bed. but it will be better in about 3.5 months!

Cravings? no, not really.

Miss anything? being able to comfortably play with Scarlett on the floor or anywhere, any way. but i will be able to again soon! and wine. i love wine.

Looking forward to: naming these babies! with Scarlett we picked a few names and waited until she was born to name her. this time i want to name them now....or sooner rather than later at least. we are still deciding tho.

21 weeks 4 days 

scar wrote '22' almost all by herself

20 weeks

How far along? 20 weeks! i'm so happy. i guess they're like a banana now. or belgium endive.

Babies are: beautiful :) i had my level 2 scan yesterday (19w6d). both babies look excellent. baby boy (A) is now head down. i was super excited about that even tho i know they move all the time and he will probably be breech next appt! baby girl (B) is still transverse. she's pretty high up, too. they both weigh 13 oz and were measuring 20w2d.

Movement: yes! for the last few weeks i have felt the butterfly feelings but finally this week i have felt kicks and/or punches! still pretty light but i feel them pretty often. well, i have mostly felt baby boy...but since yesterday i have noticed baby girls kicks. this is my favorite and i sometimes cry from gratefulness that i am experiencing this one more time.

Total weight gain: 12 lbs. i'm at 150 now. i gained 5 lbs in 2 weeks.

Maternity clothes: i need to go shopping! first up, a belly band so i don't have to buy maternity jeans that i will never wear again. and more maxi skirts because i love them and will wear them forever. and i may buy a couple maternity tops....i'm gonna do some hardcore garage sale-ing.

a favorite moment this week: seeing our babies and hearing scarlett whisper in my ear "my baby sisterisso cute." and of course feeling their little kicks for the first time :)

a hard moment this week: *sigh* i feel that my cup has been pretty empty and i have nothing to give. i have been struggling with being needed. i have been feeling so needy recently that i have found myself feeling a bit resentful of being needed. but that's my issue that i need to deal with so i can better take care of my baby girl. i consistently struggle with taking care of myself and filling myself up so i can fill my family up. this week things have also been off with alex and i. no doubt it's all entangled. so the last couple weeks have been hard as far as all this goes. but in general things are good...and will get better as i prioritize myself more. i just need to figure out how to do that.

Sleep: oh sleep. a couple weeks ago my mom bought me a SNOOGLE (a pregnancy body pillow for those not familiar). it's seriously awesome. i'm so grateful she called me up to ask if i wanted to go shopping for bedding because she knew i was not sleeping well (she also bought us new sheets and a comforter! THANK YOU MOM!!!!). it really has made such a difference. i still get up to pee 2-3 times a night. or more like 5 or 6 if you count the multiple times i get up before actually falling asleep for the night. but i'm able to fall asleep again fairly quickly most of the time.

Symptoms: indigestion is a new one. still fatigued. i have a lot of pain by my upper ribs. baby girl is way up there and everything is majorly stretching and it hurts. i have to sit with a giant pillow behind my lower back most of the time cause if i'm hunched at all it hurts even more. it's just so funny how much sooner all this is happening this time around. i feel like i did later on in my third trimester with Scarlett. it's so different. at this point i felt so great....i don't think i even felt pregnant! now i have aches and pains and just wanna sleep all the time! but i honestly still love it. tho i'm happy to not do it again, i think :)

Cravings: still loving coffee....tho i only drink it occasionally. but otherwise no.

Miss anything? the warmer weather makes me want to drink white wine. i miss wine!

Looking forward to: finding some dressers so i can start collecting and getting baby clothes out and put away! i''m just so excited for all the baby prep.

scarlett was really into this picture, can you tell?

i love this because it was totally spontaneous. i was taking a pic of myself and she jumped in
with kisses right before the timer went off.

baby boy on the left with his arm over his head and baby girl's sweet profile on the right.
they're the coolest.

you guys. i already can't see my feet. 

and just for fun. an awkward pic of me at 20 weeks with Scar!

18 weeks

How far along? 18 weeks -- halfway there! according to my apps they are sweet potatoes and bell peppers.

Babies are: looking healthy :) we had an ultrasound yesterday (17w 6d) to check for signs of spina bifida. dr found no signs and said they both look excellent and told us we have no reason to worry. those are comforting words to hear. we also officially found out our babies genders! this tech at 14 weeks guessed that baby A was a boy (but of course it was really early and mostly a guess so we were still waiting...tho i was assuming he was a boy.) a different tech at my 16 week appt told me baby B was a boy. she sounded very confident so i believed her but she was also in a huge hurry (they had squeezed me in for this appt to check my cervix and i had already waited in the lobby for an hour.)...she was very rushed and shaking. so i did have my doubts but she was just so matter of fact about it, baby B was a boy.
so yesterday the MFM tech told us/showed us baby A is a BOY (!!!!! // she was the same one that guessed at 14 weeks) so we thought at that point we were having two boys until a few minutes later when she starts checking out baby B and says "hmm...what did they tell you baby B is?" lol we knew then that she was a GIRL! boy/girl twins :) exactly what i've imagined and wanted since before i got pregnant. it was a bit surprising to find out yesterday baby B was a girl tho since it had kinna seemed they were both boys for a couple weeks there. which i was honestly getting pretty excited about. i would love two boys. buuuut i really wanted another girl. i love having a daughter. just like i know i will love having a son. i really can't wait. alex was (is!) really excited about having one of each. he loves having a daughter and is super excited to have another one...and of course a son. he was genuinely really happy with the surprise of baby B being a girl.  aaaaand scarlett totally knew all along! during this last cycle of IVF before the transfer, alex and scarlett gave me the sweetest card and in it scar had drawn two babies "one girl baby and that's a boy baby" and ever since i got pregnant she has said there is one of each. even when i would tell her we didn't know yet. it has been so sweet. when i told her yesterday she was just like "yeah i know" LOL

so baby boy (yay no more A and B!) was measuring at 18w2d, 9 oz. and baby girl was at 17w6d, 7 oz. they are laying as if they're in bunk beds - heads on opposite ends.

Total weight gain: 7 lbs...i'm at 145 now.

Maternity clothes? officially yes. tho i have very little so i wear the same like 3 things over and over! the pants are the problem. i think i need to pick up a pair of maternity jeans.

Sleep: the last few nights have been better! i only wake once or twice and have been able to fall back asleep fairly quickly. but up until now sleep has been a huge struggle. and it's still not great.

Best moment this week: finding out for sure what we're having! i love knowing! and of course seeing that they at least look healthy.

Hardest moment this week: i donno guys. probably the beginning of the week when i was not sleeping well. being that tired makes everything harder.

Cravings: jelly beans + salads!

Miss anything? i miss being able to sleep on my tummy and back.

Symptoms: peeing a lot. tired tired tired. i definitely don't feel as great as i did at this point in my pregnancy with scarlett. but i guess that makes sense since this time i'm growing two babies and mothering a 3 yr old ;) what else? itchy belly and boobs...really itchy. that didn't really happen with scar either. but still no stretch marks! i don't have any from scarlett but i keep expecting to get them this time around. we'll see.

Looking forward to: getting ready for babies! i'm excited to bring all scar's baby stuff upstairs and look through her clothes and i have a tiny box of boy clothes that i had randomly started collecting last summer at garage sales - just in case ;) i love organizing and cleaning anyway so nesting is like my favorite thing ever.